Saturday, July 18, 2009

While I was Out!

My red French Doors! LOVE THEM!

Part of the living room, before the wood floor was put in!

Hey everyone! I miss you all so very much! WE ARE OFICIALLY MOVED IN! I have some photos of right before we moved in! I am still unpacking, so more photos will be coming soon! I cant wait to get back to blogging!

My life has been such a roller coaster! My husband is currently in Battle Creek, Michigan doing an in patient treatment for PTSD! For those of you who dont know what that is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder! He served in Iraq, and Afghanistan a few times...and he has never been 100% the same.

Our lives have just gotten so out of whack, I didn't really realize how this PTSD has affected us in our relationship. He has gotten mean and irritable. It is really bad, it is to the point that he had to do something about it or it was going to overtake our lives. I feel like I dont even know him anymore. That husband comes out every once in a while, but everyday PTSD is taking a part of my husband away. He needs help! And I need this break, I am emotionally exhausted! He is just not himself anymore, numb to emotion...I see a coldness in his eyes. I feel as if he wants nothing to do with me or our family anymore. I am scared. I would love some advice from anyone! I am scared my marraige is going to end if he does not get better! I just want my husband back! I know deep down he does too!

I love you all! Please keep my husband and his recovery in your prayers!